One of the greatest reliefs of my life is also one of the scariest things I have ever experienced. The day I found out that I have a genetic disorder called polycystic ovarian syndrome was a great relief because I finally discovered that there was a reason that I was 14 years old and weighed 200 Lb and couldn't lose any. It was terrifying because not only was there something fundamentally wrong with me that I would pass to my female children, but I potentially might not be able to have children at all! Also scary was the idea that my endocrinologist told me that she wanted me to lose about 70 Lb, to be 130 lb. For about two weeks I was in full on identity crisis. I had no idea what a 130 lb me would be like. I couldn't remember the last time I weighed that little! After I started losing weight however, I realized that I would still be me. Now, 20 lb lighter, I realize that everything changes. I've come a long way, but still have a long way to go. I still don't know what's going to happen next. I don't know if I will be able to have children or not. All I really know is that I need new jeans, belts, shirts, underwear, and my rings fit really well now, and I am FINALLY starting to have normal body proportions for the first time since puberty. I know my face is thinner, and things that used to barely fit fit well. and that's good enough for now I guess.
Well, that's my life story. In case you were wondering, One of the things the teal ribbonrepresents is PCOS